Why do I bother?
Add comment July 30th, 2001
Sometimes I wonder why I bother doing this journal. Every time I make statements about my life at the time, and how I feel about it and/or the person I'm with, it ends up coming back to bite me because even though I'm after permanency, it never happens that way. Even though I make statements about how excited I am about something, and how everything is really going so well, it's invariably ended up being exactly the opposite of what I've expected or wanted or talked about in here. So sometimes I wonder why I should bother writing about anything at all… I seem to be on this eternal quest to find a partner to share my life with, but it's like they come, they share a bit, and then they go. The only positives are the times we spent together and what I've learnt about myself as a result. The problem there though, is that I'm looking for long-term positives, rather than small 'episodes' of positivity.
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