Alanz Eyes

A new year, a new beginning?

January 5th, 2005 - Posted by Alan Howard

I've decided tonight to try again with my ex, Swee, who I was with for most of 2004.  I've realised that I miss her more than I thought I would, and I've realised that I enjoyed the past month or two with her more than I thought I did.

I spoke to Dan, my dearest and bestest friend for the past 27 years, and he gave me all kinds of good advice.  Take hold of what you can, you could be dead tomorrow.  If it feels good, then do it.  And the most significant thing he said was, 'You have to get wet to learn how to swim'.  I immediately saw the significance of that with transferring it to a statement of my own…

'You have to be in a relationship to learn how to be in a relationship.'

So I talked to her tonight, and we're going to try again.  I don't know if it will work or not, but I suggested it would be nice for each of us to compromise a few things to make each other happy, in order for us to be happier together.  I think I like that.

I feel like I've come through something….  I feel like I don't want to lose something that means a lot to me, like I did with Wakana.  I want to use that error to make sure I don't make the same error again.

Maybe while searching for Wakana in someone else, I've really been searching for myself.

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