I’m going through more stress than I thought I would, with the job situation very tight, and my dad’s death, and Deidre’s own stresses reflecting mine….
There’s lots going on inside of my mind, and there’s no clarity yet. Please forgive me - and excuse me - while I take some time out for an unspecified time.
I know I’ll continue writing, and I’m sure it won’t be long. So to all my regular readers who are missing me, I hope you understand. In the meantime, please feel free to browse past posts via the Categories to the right there.
I’m back home after attending the first ever funeral of my life. I’ll summarise the experience as best I can….
Harrowing.
There you go, that’s a good summary. But now I’ll go into a bit more detail…
Not a lot of people turned up for my father’s funeral. Mum was expecting about 4 times as many as actually turned up. I think we were all a little sad about that.
Over here, Steve Pavlina discusses personal branding, which is "how you market yourself to the world. Your personal brand is what other people think of you." He also asked his audience to do him a favour, to send him three adjectives that they feel describe him. I thought that's a great idea, and I want to ask you guys, who are reading this blog, to do the same. Send me an email with just 3 words that pop into your head. (Please email them to me instead of commenting here, so that your contribution doesn't influence others.) Don't worry if they're positive or even negative, because what's important is what you think describes me as a person. This is useful for me to understand how I'm being perceived by you, the readers, and for that reason I'd love to get 3 words from all of you, whether you've been reading for years, or months, or even if you've just visited. Your feedback in this way will help me gain further clarification about how I'm presenting myself and the content in this blog. Please take the time to send me those 3 words that you feel best describe me. I look forward to hearing from you!
Ok, the plug has been removed from the well in which my emotions were hiding.
This afternoon I was reading through a book of poems that my father had written some years ago. I was looking for a poem that I might want to read out at his funeral. The following poem opened the floodgates.
Don’t Say Goodbye
Don’t say goodbye when you’re leaving
Don’t say goodbye if you care.
It’s upsetting, and could cause grieving
So simple if you’re not there.
The word itself means forever
That’s so true, you can’t deny.
If you have a friend, just remember
Say ’see ya’ and not goodbye.
If there’s one thing I’ve been conscious of, it’s being true to myself, and not trying to be or do what other people expect in such a situation. As a result, I’ve found that I have no significant feelings about my dad’s death. I felt sadder about Deidre losing her sunglasses Sunday night than I did about my dad dying.
The funeral is going to be this Friday, so we’ll be doing the 9-10 hour drive on Thursday, and then coming back Saturday. It’s going to be pretty full-on….
During the week just gone, Australia had its 'Sorry Day', where the government apologised to the Aborigines for the treatment they experienced generations ago. I can certainly understand the need for the Australian government to be seen saying sorry for something the government was responsible for generations ago, and I see it as a positive step forward for reconciliation.
About three years ago, back in 2005, there was a video put onto the internet by a young guy who was miming to the Romanian song, 'Numa Numa'. I really don't understand how it became the most popular video on the internet, but it did. To Deidre and I, it was popular for us because the guy miming in the video looked like a friend of ours. Here's the video in all its glory: And you can check out a follow-up video here.
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