More on the glasses
So I went for my eye test on Friday last week, and found that I’m longsighted, which means I have great long vision (20/15), but crap short vision (I don’t know what the visual acuity reading is for my short-range vision… I’ll have to find out, I think). I got tested for glasses, using different lenses to determine the best type for me.
<— I got the glasses yesterday and they’re supposed to aid me with reading and computer use, but there’s a bit of a problem. They only work within about a foot range of my eyes, and anything outside that range is blurry. Great if I sat about a foot away from the screen, but instead I sit about 2 feet from the screen.
Everything changes…. again
I guess it started a year ago, when that woman wanted to be my submissive. It started a series of events that ended up being all about my own evolution as a person.
I’ve been writing in this blog since 1998. That’s 12 years of online journaling and blogging. That’s 12 years of my life recorded in this blog. It’s gone through a number of transitions over that time, from different domains and different styles, but one thing has remained the same – it’s been an online record of my life for the past 12 years.
That’s pretty amazing.
Everyone grows, and 12 years holds a lot of growth. I used to be weak and pathetic, unable to even get a second date for 5 damn years! But all those experiences helped me grow into someone who didn’t have a problem getting a date or finding someone to actually spend time in a relationship with. All those relationships over the years have helped me work out what was best for me.
Wearing glasses
I used to have glasses
Back when I was 13 or 14 I had to get glasses. The school did an eye test, and I was found wanting. So off to an eye specialist I went, who prescribed glasses for me. He told me I had to wear them until I was 18, and then he’d test my eyes again to see how they were doing.
I wore those glasses for about 2-3 months then just stopped wearing them. I decided that I didn’t need them, and that was the end of it. When I was 18, I had to go to that eye specialist though, and he did another examination. My eyesight had improved, and he told me that was because of the glasses – it was a good thing that I’d been wearing them for the previous 5 years, he said, otherwise they’d be a lot worse.
I’m still here
It’s been almost 2 months since I last wrote something. I know, it needs to change. It’s been many years since I last had such a period of time without writing.
The reason for this break is pretty simple.
- I’ve simply been working and playing Eve Online when I’m not working (in between watching movies, catching up with friends, etc). Life hasn’t been exciting enough to write about, so I haven’t.
- My work with the government as a Business Analyst has moved into areas that need to limit what I should write about. So I’ve been trying to work out how that changes my writing style. I think I’ve worked out that, ultimately, it doesn’t. As long as I just write about my life and stay sensible and responsible, it’ll be fine.
Staying sensible and responsible is the challenge, isn’t it…
Moving towards my authentic self
Acceptance
When I went to a ‘find your purpose’ seminar a month ago, one of the things that I got from it was that I need to practice acceptance in order to move forward with my purpose. Acceptance has been a problem in my life. I have trouble accepting other people, situations, or even myself. I have trouble accepting the world for what it is, and want it to be different. I have trouble accepting myself for what I am, and want to be different.
While wanting things to be different can be a worthy desire, it prevents acceptance of how things are right now. We want change because ‘how things are’ makes us unhappy. We don’t want to be unhappy, so we want things – and people – to change around us.
What we’re really doing is avoiding responsibility for our own perceptions and beliefs.
